This morning, when it was raining, I came out of my apt. building walking in the rain enjoying, watching the colorful beautiful trees, being amazed by such beautiful paintings, four seasons, which God had deposited into nature, and each one of them will appear in different time and space with their own especial beauty! When I sat into the coffee shop, where I occasionally go for coffee, the surrounding were so especial, it was alive! From where I was sitting I saw people walking in different directions and each one carries a different history on his/her own shoulder , with different thought in their mind and/or in their heart in that moment of time! So I sat there trying to stop time in my own ‘space’ to see things better as they were present in front of my eyes and suddenly it came to my mind that one day, when I am gone and this ‘closed system ‘of mine, ‘body’, was decomposed, my soul might miss this coffee shop and its surrounding so much, thinking that this surrounding would never be changed and still people were coming and going and life would go on and no one would noticed my being absent ! So I started to look at everything with a new ‘look’ and I saw so many details, which I had never noticed before, thinking why this beautiful world should be temporary and what was the purpose of creating it so beautiful y! And the answer came into my heart that if this world and/or this life had never been comparable to the life of the womb of mother, the world after might be something beyond our own imagination too, and it may not be comparable to this bigger womb and /or universe, this physical life!
Since God would not be taking away something so precious from us unless He replaced it with something more and unimaginable, as He did before!
He had always loved to surprise us by not showing off the next step and/or next kingdom and /or the next home , which He had prepared for us, but He also had appointed us to design and furnish our own homes in the next world, when we are still here, in this world!
So I was comforted and started to do what I loved most ,which was writing my own thoughts and feelings on my own diary, documenting them in my own ‘time’ and ‘space’! !